Friday, January 12, 2007

Fat Like Me

By accident, I tuned into Lifetime channel Monday night, a channel by the way that I never even notice. But as I was about to switch back to USA (for RAW), this movie's prologue started to roll, then I realized that it was Kaley Cuoco's docu-drama, the one she promoted on The View just earlier that day. The morning show's obstreperous quartet was discussing obesity and its cons for the whole day, thanks to Trumpo's childish remarks. But anyway, Kaley was there for the obvious reason, and then I was instantly intrigued by the premise. And since RAW's normally being recorded weekly, I've decided to sit through the whole movie instead.


Kaley Cuoco as Aly in Lifetime TV's "To Be Fat Like Me"

It's about Aly, a popular high school jock who missed an opportunity for an athletic scholarship for college because of an untimely injury. Desperate of making it to college, she looked for countless ways to make it, including begging her coach for another chance (to no avail), until a friend suggested that they enter a contest of film documentary. Getting the idea from others who disguised themselves as other sexes and races, Aly eventually agreed to document a life of a teenage fat girl. With the help of her cosmetic specialist neighbor, she easily looked the part in a fat suit, and soon after finalizing the look, she enrolled to a new high school and began the experiment. Aly's disguise was capitalized by her delightful personality which she believed would never affect her physical appearance. She was wrong. Because no matter how friendly she was to fellow teenagers, it didn't help her gain the popularity she has when she's being her normal tiny self. If anything, it only provoked narrow-minded people to poke fun at her even more. In her own little ways though, she tried to make it all different, starting with a new friend who also happens to be fat. She'd always relay words of comfort and courage, but at the end of the day, her opinion isn't what matters the most, because she's still not like one of us. She ultimately has no idea what we see, feel and go through every single day.


While watching the thing, I was saying to myself, "God, isn't that you?". I mean, I know I'm naturally big and all, and it's not because I wear a fat suit daily. It's just that, I've always been Ms. Personality, amidst cholesterol levels. I just don't and will never crucify myself by NOT liking what I see in the mirror. It's not that I'm entirely contented with this, but unlike Aly, I never give up. I will always refuse to think that my physical appearance should hinder harmonious relationships with people I get to be with every single day. But regardless of my positive outlook in life, I still recognize the fact that being fat has its fair share of discrimination, just like say, being the only Mexican person in Park City. Just like racism, bigotry towards fat people DOES exist, and despite being extra assertive about it, it will never go away. And I'm also aware that there are quite a number of girls my age who are embarrassed and aggravated with themselves, especially when that favorite pair of jeans doesn't fit anymore. But even if that has to be the repercussion of being fat, I don't even feel any remorse about being the way I am today, physically. I may be hurt at times but I avoid looking back and drowning myself in neverending shouldawouldacouldas. And what the freakin' hell?!! I'm enjoying my life right now --nevermind the waistline-- and I'm surrounded by awesome people who love, respect and accept me for who I am, inside and out. And trust me, I am doing something about it.

13 comments:

bone said...

not sure if my previous comment got through.. but this is what i basically said:

am literally a tiny person but i come with a lot of flaws and imperfections. thats why when people comment about a fat person, i get hurt and cant stand it at all. also, human anatomy and physiology has never been a comfortable topic for me.

by the way, the white castle burgers looks uber tempting. i want one. grr.

aCey said...

hey, ate kai!!! you're beautiful, no lie. ^_^ by the way, i tagged you... hope you'll do the tag. take care! ^_^

Kai said...

Bone
Yeah. For me, discrimination of obese and anorexic people is just as bad as racial slurs. Prejudice of all kinds is evil.

Acey
Aw. Thanks, honey! Will do the tag, don't worry ;)

Elaine said...

"And what the freakin' hell?! I'm enjoying my life right now -- never mind the waistline -- and I'm surrounderd by awesome people who I love, respect, and accept me for who I am, inside and out."

AMEN!

Haha. And I agree with Acey, you are beautiful. :) Happy New Year! Sorry ngayon lang ako bumabati. Hehe. :P

shai said...

we are beautiful Kai, kahit na sobra sobra ang pounds nating dalawa, siyet ang lahat ng lumalait satin, siyet sila! hahahah, ang importante lang naman, we feel good about ourselves, tangina, kung ganito ngang majuba tayo ang ganda ganda na natin, pano pa kaya pag pumayat tayo! hahah

cheH said...

Some people are born to fatness but well-content and happy! That's more important!! taas kilay na lang sa mga manglalait I agree to shai lol !!siyet silang talaga :)

cheH said...

Besos kita ineng! ano pang sabihin nila pretty ka pa rin!:)

cruise said...

sa umpisa lang naman nakaka impress ang physical looks, but later on character is the most important at mag re reflect ito outward, kaya kung maganda character mo gaganda ang tingin sayo ng mga tao :)

isa ang sa mga tao na gusto magpapayat pero plus nalang yun kapag nakuha ko ang gusto ko, pero i like the way i am, mas maaapreciate ko kung nagyustuhan ako ng tao the way i am hindi lang dahil sa mga na achieve ko.

ish said...

sus! mas masarap yakapin ang tabachingching noh!Ü
sexy ka pag feel mo sexy ka!
ang sarap kumain ata!Ü

jassy said...

I should watch that movie, too (is that a movie?)...

chase said...

hallo dear! Oh i dig Kaley she is so fab! Btw, I like your new look again!

Laureen said...

haven't been lucky to catch an encore on Lifetime. this looks like a good movie. i just HAVE to see it. hehe.

Kai said...

Search it on your TiVo/DVR, it should have replays. :)